Another New Year is upon us. One year ago today, on January 1st, 2013 I wrote here on this blog about Change, about the hard changes, and the gentle changes. I wrote about 2012 as the year of Change, and about embracing the idea that we never know what happens next.
Sitting here now, writing this post, on the eve of yet another New Year, I look back and decide that 2013 was the year of seeking sustainable. A year of finding some stability and realizing that stable and still are not the same thing.
This is an idea I've shared countless times with my Yoga students this year. As they practice balance, I remind them that stability and stillness are not the same, that there will always be motion in balance. I remind them that balance is the ability to adapt to change.
This summer, I dug up every inch of turf and 130 square feet of concrete in my backyard in order to plant fruit trees and start a forest garden. It will be at least 4 years until those trees bear fruit.
And it's not just the trees I've committed to. Planting this forest garden commits me to this 107-year-old house as well. Planting those trees was a gesture that said "I'll stay" in this creaky old house with its cracked foundation and its squirrels in the attic.
I'll stay, but I won't always be here. I'll come back, but I have to sometimes go. I traveled some in 2013, but mostly I spent far too much time day-dreaming of being someplace else, making travel plans, and feeling the pull of wanderlust.
I got married in October. The ceremony and the celebration were small. But the commitment was huge. For almost 10 years I've stayed stubbornly single. For almost 10 years, I've been vehemently swearing off marriage as something anyone need only ever try once. I'd had my go.
Then on October 2nd I married my best friend, realizing that things, including relationships, are sustainable as long as they are adaptable. Realizing that perhaps "married" was the next evolutionary step for our friendship to take.
And so, as 2013 comes to its close, and 2014 dawns, I am grateful for all that is steadfast and all that is changing, for all that is enduring and all that evolves. I embrace stability and refuse stillness. I am resolved to continue seeking sustainable by being adaptable to change.